Contemporary discourse on transgender subjectivity is often about our embodiment: what it means (culturally, politically) to have a body that dissents, and the social effects of living in a gender dissenting body. All this conversation about embodiment forms a phenomenological vacuum, giving rise to an emergent field of trans affect studies that asks; what is it to know and feel disembodied? Being out-of-body or out-of-time in my visual arts PhD thesis is primarily and foundationally investigated as both quotidian and structured. My artistic research reaches towards two minor and complex histories that utilise/d and advocate/d for mentation practices to achieve spiritual transcendence. The first site is my childhood upbringing within the Australian branch of a fringe spiritual community, The School of Practical Philosophy; the second is the archival ephemera of the early trans justice organisation the Erickson Education Foundation (EEF), held in the Transgender Archives collection at the University of Victoria, British Columbia. Whilst at first seeming to be sharply unrelated histories, with the first operating through a dogmatic system and the second through grassroots epistemologies, they formed in the same historical period (the late 1960’s) and are both attempts to organise in contradistinction to the force of capitalism and the singular, coherent, linear Enlightenment individual. Complementing a description of my research in progress, I will show a reel of rushes from the previous week of filming on site at ‘Mahratta’, a property owned by The School of Practical Philosophy.